Bad Week Rant

Only two days in and it has already been a really bad week.

Sunday evening I overheard my housemates talking about what a bitch I am. They don't even know me at all and haven't made any effort to talk to me at all, so how can they jump to this conclusion? So now I hate my housemates totally and am paranoid and feel lonely and depressed. The joy.

Also trying to get hold of Finn since we were supposed to be going to see Adam Ant on Friday, but he hasn't replied and it's probably too late for me to get a ticket in time now.

Yesterday I had a meeting in the morning and only realised when I was due to leave that I'd left my bus pass at home and I didn't have any money at all. I had to get a lift from my bf and I was still 10min late for the meeting...which was really short and pointless.

I was meeting my aunt and gran afterwards in town so they gave me my bus pass. But I had to walk to town in the rain. We were Christmas shopping, but I didn't find a single thing I liked.

Get back home, and the boiler now makes ridiculously loud noises as if it's about to explode whenever someone has a shower. Then my light goes dim and starts buzzing. And some ass on eBay refunds me with no explanation, because their item sold for too little...which you are NOT ALLOWED TO DO and now I'm without phone case again (and I really need one as iPhone 4s shatter when you drop them!).

Today I try to change my lightbulb and a bit of the light fitting falls off when I take the bulb out, so now I have no light at all. Which means I can't do my work as it's too dark...I'm pretty screwed now as I can't even see the stuff on my bed to tidy up. And I need to have read 4 really long papers by tomorrow which I now can't do. Unless I sit downstairs in the living room which has damp sofas and other people's mess, and where assholes who hate me for no reason will keep walking past. I also received an item I bought off eBay which is incomplete, which annoys me too.

And tomorrow I have to get up really early (when it will still be pitch black outside, and thus also inside) and go to a meeting where I have to present a research idea, for research I don't understand at all and I get too nervous in front of people to speak at all, let alone stand up in front of them and talk about something I'm too thick to understand.

And I haven't even had any chances to wear lolita for absolutely ages which means I have thousands of pounds worth of clothes lying unused in my wardrobes, and I'm way too far in to leave lolita...especially since I'd probably lose my only friends by doing so.

So all in all I'm really frustrated and have no way of letting out my frustration other than ranting on the internet, which doesn't help as I'd rather be smashing something.

DoL Milky Planet Review & Placement

Yeah yeah, I know a million Milky Planet reviews have been done before, but I just got mine so...


The colour is so pale! The fabric is rough and pretty much see-through, so on the waist ties you can see the other side of the fabric showing though. This property also makes the colour look quite patchy. I can't say I'm too surprised, as the black version looked really washed-out to me. The zip is on the right-hand side, which threw me at first as they're usually on the left. I've also found 3 different areas which have slight staining, but not really that noticiable. The zip is also useless. The star buttons for the waist ties were cute, and the scallops look decent and lace is soft (although I can't unsee lions jumping over strawberries!), so it's not all bad.


The print looks fine. In the yellow, the missing section of roof isn't noticeable and I've no problem with the dark pink being almost red. However, the icecreams do look like brains!! Also I swear that writing says 'AnOoHc Preety'.


The headbow is fine, though reaaaaally floppy. Going to have to reinforce it somehow. The same is true for the clip-on bow which is even worse - it's practically falling off the pin as it was stitched on so badly!


Forgive lack of blouse and totally mismatching make-up xP

Probably wasn't worth what I paid, but I do love the print and I still like the dress. However! While I was expecting it to be long on me, I wasn't really expecting it to be as long as it is. It looks utterly ridiculous on me...the lace reaches 3 or 4 inches below my knee when I'm wearing a petticoat! I'll have to enlist the help of some serious pouf, and if that fails I'll have no choice but to sell it on!


I started my placement today...I was so nervous this morning, and had to get up early which really doesn't suit me! The buses are awful, they only run once an hour. My pass is valid for another bus too, but it runs at EXACTLY THE SAME TIME but the stop is on the other side of the road so I can't hedge my bets. Grr. Because of the huge gap between buses, I had to get the 8.40 one (which I almost missed, but it was late thankfully) and then had to wait around for about an hour on campus.

Had a short chat with my supervisor, who is awfully enthusiastic and has far too much faith in me. And so basically I have to do reading for a few weeks. READING. No reading list or anything, just reading around the vague topics he suggested. And bloody video games. Ugh. It sounded good at the time as he said it was about video game addiction and I'm really interested in addiction, especially since I could bring in an emotion element which is my real interest. But I can't find any papers on that and he was all excited about positive effects of video games...which we've pretty much already done before. Three times. And it's incredibly dull.

I don't even have to go up to campus unless I have a meeting, need the library or the labs. Which is annoying, coz if I'm not locked in a room with a specific task, my mind tends to wander. I managed to do okay though, I went to the library and did about 2.5 hours finding papers online. I stopped for lunch, found a book and then decided 'to hell with this' and came back home as the library was starting to fill up with annoying freshers and I wanted a cup of tea. Started working again for another 3 hours. Kept getting distracted occasionally though, and only got through 2 papers as I'm a really slow note taker and find academic papers really difficult. It wasn't too boring, but the thought of doing the same for the next three weeks fills me with dread. And I'm supposed to do 7 hours of work a day, which obviously I didn't manage.

I'm really not sure what to do from now. I worked a little better in the library, but it was really deserted in there compared to how it will be when university starts up properly again...and I can't concentrate if there's any noise at all, and people always talk. Some ass decided to sit right next to me too even though at the time the rest of the damn library was empty. I'd still favour that option, but it'd add so much extra time onto my day in travel. So I figure I'll stay at home, but I don't have a desk or any room for one, and I have no idea when to start. It's supposed to be a 9-5 thing, but I'd rather get up at 10 at the earliest, but then I wouldn't start work until at least 11 so I wouldn't finish until really late!

I don't know how people cope with work. It leaves no time for fun things like going for walks. I barely had time to get groceries today between the rain and it getting dark...but I'll have to get used to it!

Loltia 30 ~ Day 27 ~ Lolita Song

Day 27 – One song that fits your favorite lolita style.

...Music is music. Fashion is fashion. Stop trying to make me match up the two because they don't. I love sweet lolita and I listen mostly to light rock music, they don't exactly match up. And besides, I made a whole post where I struggled to pick lolita-esque songs already!


Heh sorry I'm in a bad mood as I seem to be tired constantly and my mum is getting on my nerves. She said she'd buy me a tattoo for my birthday...my birthday was 5 months ago. Everytime I bring it up she's all like 'LOL BUT U NO LYK NEEDLES' even though I hate jabs because they're unnecessary and I hate the needle going into muscle and the pain of when they squeeze the liquid into you. That's nothing like a tattoo. Then she says 'U NO HANDLE PAIN' and it's like bitch, please. She has no idea =/ I can't even say why but I'm sure it's pretty obvious. I just want my fucking tattoo and I'm not spending my own money on it when I'm owed. And she's just a cow anyway. I have no freedom and I'm not allowed to do anything. I'm sure I'll get kicked offline soon enough, but I'm not allowed to play video games or read either, and I live in the middle of nowhere with no friends. So god knows what she expects me to do (oh work probably, despite there being no jobs and I don't bloody need or want to).

There are other things bugging me right now but I really can't write about that...and I have no one to talk to. So forgive me if I'm going a little mad.


Ehem. I also got to see Deathly Hallows Pt. II last night. I thought it was really good! Though young Lily's eyes were BROWN which naturally caused me to gesticulate in a silent 'Y UR EYES NO GREEN?!' for a few minutes. I also realised I was kinda in denial before...I am sad it's over! The series has been a part of my life for the last 12 or so years!

I got a theme outfit together in the end too, but didn't get a photo. Black tee, tights and boots with blue tutu skirt, nail varnish, eyeshadow and pendant. And my temporary tattoo!


I was the only person there in house colours though...I thought more people would dress up! But apparently not ^_^'

Can Vegetarians Be Sexy? FUCK YES

So I was trying to concentrate on my Developmental Psychology notes when my attention is drawn to the TV. The Wright Stuff is on. And I know the sole purpose of this programme is to create unnecessary controversy to get people calling in and arguing, but this really irritated me.

‘Can Vegetarians Be Sexy?’

I appreciate that many would prefer to be with someone with similar eating habits to themselves, but they went as far as to say ‘I would stop fancying someone who didn’t eat meat’. Why the hell would you limit your options and disregard a potentially perfect partner due to what they do or do not eat? Does it really affect you that much? I’m sorry, but it’s more of an issue the other way around and I doubt you’d find many vegetarians refusing to date meat-eaters.

And then the whole ‘they can’t be sexy’. Because feasting on dead animals is sooooo attractive. Apparently vegetarians are ‘weak and pale’...um no, as long as they eat properly and get sunshine and exercise they’re no weaker or paler than the next person. Look at Anthony Kiedis ffs, he's tanned and sexy and I dare anyone to claim otherwise!

They went on to make wild assumptions that all vegetarians are picky eaters which we aren’t, and even if we were it really does not affect relationships. My first boyfriend ate meat with every meal and would never EVER even consider trying vegetarian alternatives. Did it negatively affect our relationship? NO! (Nothing beyond me being uncomfortable when he ate smelly tuna anyway.) Who cares what people eat? It’s not like I’m going to shove vegetarian food down my partner’s throat if they don’t want to eat it (...and it’d hardly be terrible if I did because they’d be getting their food cooked for them!).

It just bugs me because so many people misunderstand vegetarians already without this additional rubbish. The amount of times people have decided that the reason I’m thin is because I’m a vegetarian, or that I’m a vegetarian to stay thin (vegetarians can still eat cake, people!).

I apologise for my mini-rant that lacks purpose or direction...I had more to say on the matter but between finishing my notes and getting to the laptop I forgot things! GRRRR haha. And I appreciate I may be a little biased here, but I'd feel the same even if I wasn't a vegetarian. It just scares me a little that people think the other way...not to mention making me realise just how lucky I am to have a boyfriend who doesn't mind my vegetarianism, strange fashion sense, diminutive stature and extreme bitchiness.

So what do you guys think? Would you avoid dating a vegetarian? What about someone with a food allergy, would you reject them too?